2020… a horror movie?…

As I sit in the local hospital typing this, I think to myself, is 2020 a nightmare? Will I wake up soon?

I’m sure this year is a movie written by Stephen King and directed by Quentin Tarantino.

On top of all my mental health problems, the covid-19 pandemic, hurting someone I loved dearly, I now have another worry.

My doctor is now concerned about my physical health and I’m sitting waiting for blood tests and x-rays.

Yep….you guessed it…..to check for Mr C. 😭

I know I said I was going to be posting positive blogs, and I am, but felt this was so much of a joke on me that I had to share. 😂

Karma must be a total bitch, because I am getting dumped on from a great height this year so far.

I’ll try to keep positive for the next week until I get my test results in. Fingers crossed, but I’m expecting the worst.

The hospital gowns aren’t really fashionable though!

Day 1 after the outbreak…

I’ve called this day 1 after the outbreak as our bumbling PM has relaxed the lockdown rules, and i can see nothing but carnage and a second wave of a high death toll.

Luckily here in Scotland, we have a well informed first minister taking the cautious approach.

Now into week 7 of lockdown, im sure the majority of the population are struggling with mental and physical deterioration.

Me myself have had the past few days from hell. Real bad, with actions I didn’t think I was capable of. I’ve had an emergency appointment with my doctor and he has set up a plan to help.

Number 1. Dont interact with negativity/negative people.

Number 2. Use the extra medication if and when needed.

Number 3. Have a safe person/number to call.

Number 4. Try to keep mind away from past events and people that bring anxiety. Occupy with tasks.

Not a bad start so far. I’ve switched off Facebook. Exercise regularly (rowing machine) and went for a jog with steph.

Starting the exercise 6 weeks ago has definitely changed my body shape. Flat stomach now, I can even see my winky when I look down 😂

The exercise keeps my mind occupied and helps not dwell on events that have caused me a melt down over the past 3 months.

So hopefully, things can only get better. Surely?

I’ve even started to go back out on the tools again for small emergency jobs. Its all extra pennies in my pocket.

Move forward, the past must stay in the past. I can do this, I know I’m stronger than I think I am.